HELLOO! ahhh!! my throat hurts, plus no voice coming out from my vocal sacks, . .. .. . . .. .. . SHAGG SHAGG~~ hmm its 12 plus now the sun outside is still shining so brightly, but nowhere of daddyy. these daes, kinda havin communication break down with him x.x like cant talk for more then 5-1omins? then "i" and "he" will start talking loudly tuh each other . then i'll alwaes shout :D then he sae i siao. sicked rite!! haas, thats a part and puzzle of relationships. it been 8months and 13daes with him, the love between hasn't fade but sometimes the attitude goes haywire. :'S didn know what tuh do, cause we both felt tat wat we're doin now isn't enough, like we were before , LOLS. haiish- hope the better dae fer the turning wae out will come sooner or later. its diffcult coping with studies, maintaing the house chores and relationships & family & the daily meals, surviving with onli with onli $25o/month. what tuh do when finacial reaches the tip top of the mountain falling off soon. i'll alwaes swear tat i'll earn tones tones of $$, for mah mama, and fer my future, but it aint' realistic x.x tell me how to earn tones of money in the short period of time. sometimes i really tot of having a break with the education stuffs, go fer a work with my own intelligency of sales. >.<" so tat i could cut down the costs usage for my mummy. how i wished tat it colud be done. but tots from the other wae she wanted us to finish our studies with flyin colours, tats why she's working so so so so bloody hard. really dunnoe what tuh do. went out with my cous, and aunt yesterdae. aunt tell me to ask mah mama to end her bussiness, bec.. . . . . i noe the reason. she aslo keep saying about my father keep going out and ga..... bla bla bla, i noe all tat, but what tuh do? i can change all these for my mummy onli when i hav money. which ish now verh urgent need for them. so i'm finding waes to earn money while i'm home and study x.x ( all these sounded like i'm going fer bankkrupt uh?) NO & NOPE! tat i'll let tat be an ending and return to the life of what we have before. SHAGG, praying hard didn noe what tuh do. sometimes i actually think tat men are useless, they alwaes go by their faces to do stuffs, nort wanting to be"diu lian". but women, sacrisfied for the whole family alone, nort wanting her child to suffer like her. i jus dun understand why it cant be the other wae rd, and put the stupid husband into the shoes of their wifes, and use their bloody head to think. use their bloddy heart to feel the aches. FCUKED UP- girls! so its important to pick up the rite guy fer marriage! good guys are often gone these daes. haii..... jus hope tat good fortune will cmove forward and bad luck goes. """"SHOO SHOO SHOOOOOO~""""" stupid stupid stupid!!. i hate rich ppl who looked down on others, and those who think tat with their stupid tones of money they could jus do wat they want, one dae i'll earn back the whole load lots of money for ur grave usage! ARGHH! cant they jus be generous! shagg! seriously, when we were rich tat time, ppl look up to us, they will try waes to stop my mama from getting richer, " EVEN UR OWN BLOODED RELATIVES,OKAYS!" wah cb, fucking heartless. my mama aint selfish and be like her usual, "i'll help euu with every or anythingy tat u needed" when it turns ard, ppl changed. mei jia jiao de fuggers! hope tat when the dae u'll be gone for good, there ain't even a coffin for u to lie on! arghh!! fcukers. stressed up. PRAYIN hard fer the daes tuh be gone. but at least; i'm jus happy enough tuh have them by mah side. at least we could share the time of laughters together, untill it wilts awae. THANK you, my BELOVED ONES, ba0beii'x SISTAS ; daddy & most of all mah MUMMY.

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